There is that brain ticking away, that endless stream of consciousness on and on without a consideration of rest. Maybe I'll become an insomniac if things keep going on like this... or possibly just a very sleep deprived girl.
Well life continues despite lack of posts, it caries on with or without friends held dear and it keeps on going even when you'd wish it could stop at that particular perfect moment in life.
So once again, 2am in the morning i find myself here, not out and about at a party like i should be, but in my room blabbering my blabber in a blog as everyone interesting on msn seems to have began their slumber. This is usually the part where people choose to tune out because things become a little confusing, unordered and hard to understand... i strongly suggest you to do the same and leave now.
You know, sometimes i wish i could just make things perfect. Not exactly for me, but others. I wish the ones who deserve it could have everything they wish for. Quite a vague comment, i know... but this does refer to people like my close friends but then again part of it stretches to those who have lived their whole lives in slavery, poverty and famine....that sort of thing. Genuine-down to earth, great and amazing people always seem to get shitted on. Like a flock of birds overhead a car, they attack. one after the other with nothing but a trail of poop left behind, splattered across that freshly washed car.
It just seems so unfair that someone can get your spirits up so high and bring them crashing down without even realising it. I'm sure every person has had this happen and unknowingly done it to someone else. But honestly, what can ya do?
'harden the fuck up' , 'keep your chin up' , and ' keep smiling'
what else is there to do?
Nothing, yes thats right nothing at all.
Why are bugs attracted to all light? Why brighter lights rather than dull? Don't bugs realise that there are less of them surviving the nights when cars are about as they continually end their lives flying into the bright light and ending up as a splatter upon a car which someone tries desperately to scrub off in the morning? I mean what is it about a light that draws them to it...why is it so revealing? Why on earth am i blabbering on about bugs and lights? Oh right, there was a moth on my screen... but nobody gives a craaaaaap. Actually you've probably stopped reading by now. If you havn't you must be verrrrry bored to waste this much of your life on a mindless blog like this.. otherwise maybe i owe you a banana paddle pop or something for continuing through this mess.
I had some relevance about a bug story, which related to something or other but im really too sleepy to remember what it was and how i worded it...My thinking cap just won't switch off...pre-set to 24/7... Maybe i like it like that, then again i really don't think so. Take the good with the bad i guess, and keep smiling in-between all the mess. Boys are too complicated to ever fully understand. I think i'll leave it at that.
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